We had our first ultrasound for Turkey Tater Tot. We were pretty terrified to go. They even put us in the same room we were in last time with our little Grace Willow. This is the same screen we saw her on. Her heart was beating last time we saw here here..
I wrapped up in my paper towel skirt and then,to lighten the mood.. they had this offensive piece of machinery set up for me. How wonderful.
RUDE! It didn't even buy me dinner first. Seriously.. that's a glove?! Wow.
Ok so, there it goes, looking for our TTT's heartbeat. It seemed to take a while. Please just let me see a heartbeat.
Then, I saw Him.
Wow. There's my baby! There's my Turkey Tater Tot!! He DOES exist! We couldn't believe it.
Based on my LMP I was supposed to be 7w3d. Ryan and I thought I was 6w6d-ish. The ultrasound confirmed what we thought and dated the baby to be 6w5d which makes the due date December 4th.
We saw and HEARD the heart beat too! It was 113. I thought this was a little low but the doctor said it was very normal for this early gestational age. She said it should be between 110-120. When I googled this to make sure she wasn't blowing smoke, I read it could be between 90-120. Ok so I guess I'll calm myself a little about it. It was just so beautiful to see the little flicker of our little rainbow's heart. We made that heart. I can't believe it.
We go back on May 17th for our next appointment. Oh, and somewhere around that time we're going to see Dr. Awesome at MFM to get our level II ultrasound and all of the other testing. We decided against an amnio though. No need to poke around in there.
I tried to keep a distance between me and TTT. It sounds awful, but I was just so scared to fall so hard for our rainbow until we saw the heart beat. It didn't work out too well. I loved him before today. After today, after our ultrasound....That heart. That beautiful beating, flickering heart melted our hearts and I'm so in love with that little blob I can hardly stand myself.
Oh, and I called him - HIM- because I dreampt it was a boy. I know I know, that doesn't mean anything. I just kinda have this hunch. I could be very wrong. I had a dream that we had a little baby boy and brought him home. He was healthy and absolutley beautiful. With Grace, I always had dreams that we would deliver our baby and then we couldn't find her. We never took her home. We know how that turned out. This dream I had recently about HIM, he came home with us. His name was Kohen. I hope and pray that my dream comes true.
Ryan and I both SO appreciate all of the thoughts and prayers that you all have sent our way.